Broken

I try really hard to make my writing interesting and informative, but I don't think I can do that this time. I've recently found out that my actions and attitude over the past year have so seriously strained one of my friendships, that we can't even talk to each other anymore. There is no greater hurt than knowing that I nearly ruined the most valuable thing in my life...a friendship. My friends mean the most to me, and this particular one was the best and deepest friendship I'd ever had. Love and trust was built in record time. Even dependence became part of this friendship making it unlike any I'd ever had. It touched a place in my heart none ever had before. Luckily, it's not completely ruined. But, a wound like this will take a long time to heal. I have to live in the unknown for a significant amount of time and that scares me. The only thing I can do is give it to God and hope that time and faith can heal a wound this serious. I can't adequately express the remorse I have for what I've put this person through, and I can only hope and beg that I'll be forgiven.

"God, give me the strength to wait on your will in this matter and please help those involved to forgive me for what I put them through. Help me to learn from this to prevent these circumstances from ever repeating. I want my life to be continuously in your will and guidance. Lord forgive me for not trusting you in handling this situation months ago."